Hello, September 2020 we got sick for the first time, it was hard, could not breath and felt like a heart attack everyday for 2 weeks., but it passed. April 2021. First 3 weeks was sick and + , was horrible and did not think it would pass, had to get depends as it was out of control “literally”. End of that 3rd week I went to the emerg and could not breathe, dr took 1 look and said You have covid go home…. 3 days later I was admitted… just about 36 hours later my 3 week ventilator adventure began, felt like a year. I was given memory wipe drugs to help forget and my mind made 3 alternate realities, where in 2 I died horribly… when I awoke took me over a week to see what was real… and they told me I coded 2x on vent. 5 weeks later they released me to come home, second day home my leg felt like a cramp turns out a 10 inch blood clot and another over night at emerg. Been home since May 30, relearning to breath and walk, but no longer on walker, a cane now. can’t even walk my dog….. My mind and body are screwed, my partner saved my life. on the day i came off the vent, I had given up, sat in a dark void broken, i was done playing it’s game, then my step mother who passed started yelling at me to get up, go to my girl she needed me, she did not raise a quitter..(she died 3 years ago) and I found myself in an old 1970 office, metal desks, and old white computer. I found myself sitting there looking at outtakes of the tv show of the hospital, seeing me as an actor and some weird shit. then i found a webpage of my partner sitting next to me holding my left hand, i could literally feel her warmth. I clicked “Click here to resume” . and i awoke Saturday at noon… after been off vent for 3rd week and in ICU for a week and a half. It was for the love my Fiancée and my Pug that kept me going https://www.instagram.com/pumpkinpatchthepug/ It is now end of July, my lower back is still numb or asleep and I am cautious even with 1 vaccine shot. anyhow thanks for reading, helps to get it out at times. Charles